Saturday, December 31, 2005

Plans

It seems appropriate to begin this post by saying a Happy New Year to everyone! Yeah, well I know it isn't quite 2006 yet, but at the rate I am going the New Year will be here long before an appropriate post can be made...

Where to start... You might first notice that there have been a few suttle changes to the blog site. Unfortunately the blog site modification learning curve is steep and that directly influences the passage of time, thus, I failed to do all things that seemed like a good idea at the onset (ah, so much like things in life, eh?). In any case the most relevant point here is not so much the additions to the blog site, but rather the newly added picture albums (click on link to right or click here)) and the recent posts on another road trip and the upcoming YWAM experience.

The past few months have been a whirlwind. I completed the month long study session of October culminating at the 28 Oct test day for the Professional Engineering Examination. It was harder than I expected and I had to do a bit more guessing than hoped for, but who cares now, it's done. Of course, once the results come in that may change my attitude on how much I care about guessing - it could be that come next October I will be preparing once again to test. Results will hopefully be in within the next month. To anyone out there preparing for the mechanical PE test here are a few brief recommendations: do go back to the basics and study concepts in thermo, fluids, dynamics, materials and HVAC; work problems rather then read the study guide; obtain practice tests and work them over; work problems; oh, and work problems. There were a few problems that I was stumped on because I during the actual test as I failed to understand the complete concept/theory and thus could not step logically through them (crappy refrigeration-compression cycle). Purchase the Mech PE study guide by PPI (the big blue book) and related problem solutions, practice test, and equation summary book. Obtain good textbooks for fluids, thermo, materials, HVAC, unit conversions, and a good steam tables (i.e. Keynan & Keyes - sp??). Bottom line is to allow enough study time to allow yourself to comfortably work the practice tests. Don't focus on obtaining the right answers to the practice tests, just know how to work the test problems. Don't worry, the test will likely be more difficult then imagined, but shouldn't be more so then a healthy survey of practice tests. Happy studies!

The week following the test I found myself in Fairbanks once again, this time not just to visit some friends but also to officially resign from my work position. It had at this point nearly been one year since I had actually spent a day at work, however, the time had come to make a decision as to whether or not to return to this organization prior to my leave-of-absence expiring. Without regret I did resign from my position with the organization in an effort to pursue life upon other avenues. However, the one regret that I do admit is no longer working with the guys that had formed our small (yet effective) team over the past years - they do continue on, achieving great things and that probably due to their stubbornness to continually do what is right whatever it means.

Well, after those eventful activities I departed for the Lower 48 in early November only to return on Christmas Eve to Alaska. The month and a half spent in the continuous States were eventful, and fun, with a bit of focus thrown in for the upcoming months. In amongst the good times spent with relatives and friends there were occasions made to visit some seminaries and explore options for the future.

It was not until the first week or so of December that I received word that my recent application to Youth With A Mission (YWAM) had been accepted. This was, literally, a last minute application after a cascade of events in the weeks prior. I suppose there is not much to say right now. I have included a more in depth post on the subject below under the YWAM entitled post - please reference that post should you care to peruse more of that decision. Involvement with YWAM will take me to New Zealand in just under two weeks for a period of three months. These months in New Zealand will then be followed by an additional three months in an unknown number of countries (up to eight?). Following this latter three month period the experience with YWAM will end and I may continue to travel until late July of next summer. The experience with YWAM is a Discipleship Training School (DTS) entitled Around the World in 80 Days. There are a few more words about the YWAM opportunity wrapped up in a separate post below.

The preparations for YWAM snowballed after the acceptance into the DTS program and there has been much activity surrounding these preparations including activities related to applying for two seminaries in the Portland area. Granted, the seminary applications are a bit more on hold now then previous weeks as YWAM is now the short-term goal. However, between three different (but somehow related) applications there was no lack of inactivity, notably so when were plenty of relatives and friends to visit and cousins to annoy.

So, the past month and a half has been filled, in addition to the aforementioned applications, with trips to the beach, a grand announcement by brother and his now fiancee' (congrats!), a Thanksgiving feast, late nights of pinochle, trips to Mt. Hood for fun in the snow, countless hours of bowling, dinners out with friends and family, and one fun (albeit long) road trip from Washington DC to Oregon (via the southern route). The recent road trip garnered enough words to justify it's own post, below.

As of now I am back in Alaska, enjoying the cold weather (hey, Oregon "cold" is still above freezing, most of the days), and trying to figure out how to fit 6000 cubic inches of "stuff" into a 4000 cubic inch backpack - I didn't want to take a toothbrush anyway...

Hope everyone out there had a grand Christmas. Stay tuned for shorter, and more exciting posts (they actually won't be about me, but at least they will contain some interesting aspects of somebody's adventures...).

Monday, December 26, 2005

'Tis the Season

After a very extended recess from blogging it seemed appropriate to begin anew with a short note to say a simple Merry Christmas to one and all!

And so, Merry Christmas - enjoy the day and eat all you can, but don't forget the reason for the season!

More blogging will follow; as will some pictures. However, in the meantime, there are presents under the tree that have not yet passed the shake test...

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

From Oregon to Washington DC and Back Again

3500 miles. That's what it will take go tripping south from Washington DC to northern Alabama, west on I-40 to California, and north on I-5 from Bakersfield, CA to near Portland, OR. Of course that figure also includes a small side trip or two; notably to the Grand Canyon.

So how did we end up on the road? Spur of the moment, one time shot to drive a truck (purchased over eBay mind you) from northern Virginia back to Oregon. No regrets - just a sore bum from lots of sitting in the truck.

It was a good trip. A chance to see country yet unseen by both my Aunt Carla and I; yet also an opportunity to do some visiting that would otherwise not have occurred. With prolonged stops in south Virginia, visiting Carla's friend, and northern Alabama, visiting bro's fiancee's family, we both were able to enjoy a small part of life in those respective places and get a taste of what it means to not just drive through and check out the scenery.

We added a few interesting stops along the way, namely the Grand Canyon and an overnight in Laughlin, Nevada. Oh, lest we forget the grand steak dinner in Amarillo, Texas!

If you have not been to the Grand Canyon then you best had do so before it's too late - it is nothing that a picture can truly transcend - it is much more. A similar comment would also have to be said for Washington DC!

Let's just say that amongst the couple long driving days, candy bar wrappers and diet Pepsi's my Aunt Carla and I were happy to disembark from the truck after arriving in Oregon.

Monday, December 05, 2005

Youth With A Mission

YWAM - Youth With A Mission. DTS - Discipleship Training School. AW80 - Around the World in 80 Days.

Those are the generals of the upcoming, and you might say, current experience. I leave for New Zealand early on 12 January and arrive in Christchurch, New Zealand on 14 January. Actually, I'll end up at the Oxford YWAM base just outside Christchurch. I still haven't figured out if I lose a small bit of my life in the time zone transition, however, I figure the return trip from New Zealand (scheduled 31 July) will at least be a simple form of time travel - heck, I'll leave NZ about four hours after I arrive back in the states - figure that one out.

And so it goes in life that decisions should be made. Sometimes those decisions are made with much thought and discernment. Sometimes those decisions are made in haste. Sometimes those decisions just happen.

So that is where YWAM falls into line at - a decision that just sort of happened. Sure there were reasons - good and some maybe not so good - but specific reasoning escapes me for the moment. It had something to do with the appeal of a broad exposure to the world, removing myself from my comfort zone, and some form of Biblical and spiritual learning; most importantly, it was a God-thing. Yeah, maybe that sounds strange to phrase it as such, but right now, I can't adequately explain using nouns and verbs just what that means. Honestly, I don't know much about what I am getting into but that's not really any concern - the decision brought with it a peace by which the future, as of yet unknown, just makes sense - the "click factor" (that's for you Morgan if you ever read this). So went the experience with Mercy Ships not so many moons ago.

It may be best this way - that is to know little about what the future path may hold. I think it makes traveling that path easier - no expectations to eventually be disappointed with, no "set in stone" plans to have pulled out from underneath, and plenty of opportunity to get outside the comfort zone. At least, at this point in time, this slightly unknown aspect is more than slightly appealing.

Ah, only time will tell what the future holds.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Oregon

A friend recently poised the question (paraphrased here) as to whether a person, in the course of life, would choose an easy road or a difficult path. Such question may very well be what defines a person’s life. Does not everyone face a similar question at some decision point (or points) during their life time? Which path would you choose, given a view of the horizon that each direction may provide? Are you certain that at a critical time the choice made would reflect your answer to the previous question?

As I sit here and consider such a question among the other recent events in my life I can’t help but wonder if I will make the decision to which I would like to say I could – does that make sense? This is to say that would I become a hypocrite given a certain situation and a decision to make?

And should not a second question derive from the first in an effort to define what is “easy” and what is “hard”? Who can delineate the significance of such words except for the person facing them? Is not the definition of “easy” and “hard” simply a reflective look within the person? One man’s battle may be another man’s day on the beach. Yet a person could become so enthralled with the defining of the “easy” and “hard” paths that the thinking and wondering involved with the pondering of each could become a stagnant crossroad of inaction and apathy. I would suppose that a person, following careful and purposeful consideration, must pursue action and not ponder for the sake of second guessing. I hope to pursue action but must first consider the paths that stretch onto the horizons – the crossroads at which I sit has become familiar, yet I do not desire it to become comfortable as I cannot stay much longer as the future waits for no one.

It’s a beautiful sunny day outside here in Forest Grove, Oregon as I sit in at a corner study cubicle at the library (a very pleasant and new facility) on the campus of Pacific University pondering the last few days, and months of life. The reflection on this recent past is an effort to define the future – to shape the choices and attitudes which the future can or may hold. Not only this but included herein is also the consideration of the how the recent events and explorations of late may have significant impact on the future.

This past Monday and Tuesday were quite full. I will not go into detail of the day’s events, just as I will likely not go into detail upon which roads travel out before me at this crossroads. I desired to reflect little upon the day’s events since then in a manner deeper then hitting the replay button in my brain. Suffice to say that the days were an opportunity to explore, considering a future in certain situations, seeking God’s guidance in the paths ahead, and to share in the joy of a friend.

It now becomes time to make a decision – to seek action and pursue what’s next. It is exciting and will be a new experience. What it is yet I do not know, but ask in a month and I may have a better idea. I choose not to write about the specifics as I don’t quite know how to word them, nor do my thoughts on matters at hand continue in a consistency that putting them down in written (and public forum) would require. I do write though to seek clarity in my own mind. If there is one thing to learn from this blog – one thing that I could take away from the blogging experience – is that writing has become a manner of providing clarity to my jumbled brain, seeking peace in the midst of the cauldron of thought, providing an outlet to emotion and a form of therapy, and finally, providing another route to which I may pursue the Lord.

As my fingers run over the keyboard and provide a sketch board for the wandering musings of my mind, heart, and soul, I continue to ponder and consider continuing my rambling onto another tangent, yet such ramblings must wait for another day and another writing mood (which ebb and flow). I have run out of things to say for now, perhaps precipitated by the fact that I do intend to drive up to Tacoma this afternoon at some point (this post will not appear on the blog until arrival there), however, there is one brief topic to cover before I part with this post.

It strikes me that life does not arrive at its end on its own. It is driven to that end by the person who lives it. And so the question should derive as to where are you driving your life and for what reason? Are you in control or is something beyond you in control of your life and the road upon which you travel? Look, I don’t pretend to know all the answers in life, nor all the questions to ask, however, I do know that there is a question which continues to be present in my mind, or rather a series of questions, one derived from another. That is, where is Christ in the midst of life? How does He fit in? What does it mean to follow Him? It is a question similar to these that I believe we all must come to terms with at some point in life regardless of whether or not a person believes in God – the overreaching question becoming what is the meaning of life? Why am I here and what do I do with my life?

There is so much to say on any of these questions or related topics – literally thousands of books have been authored pursuing such answers. I won’t attempt to answer these questions for you or pretend that I even know the answer to all of them (however, I do believe I know the answer to some of the above questions and logical derivations). The point of my writing this is to say that while I know many things in life are uncertain and while there will always be a question without an answer life should not be carried out in such a way as to stumble over the questions that are difficult. Pursue the difficult questions. I can’t tell you where you will end up, but I believe that your life will be driven to an end that is far more certain than having not taken the necessary turns to seek out the answers to the hard questions. Life is short and we know not when the end of our road may be reached.

My plan is to pursue the Lord for as He promises “[a]sk and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.” (Matthew 7:7-8) The last few months have precipitated what the many past years have continued to build. There is something within me that is changing to which I cannot describe. I am drawn in directions I didn’t think possible. My desires have changed and my ideas of the future continue to morph. As a wise friend once observed (and I paraphrase here) the experiences of a person cannot be fully understood by others, an person’s experience is that person’s alone and full understanding may never be reached by an outsider, yet a similar experience may provide insight that discussion and images could no. And so I say get out there and experience life for yourself – pursue God and hold on.

I don’t know what’s next but I have faith and that faith must now meet with action in the decisions of the future.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Squarebanks

I don't know why Fairbanks is sometimes referred to as Squarebanks - maybe it's one of those nicknames that a person uses without any clue as to it's real meaning or origin. Anyway, I use it (maybe I am the only one that does...) and in a loving way.

Fairbanks is a great place, a little cold in the winter, but, nonetheless a grand place to live. Now, there are certainly people that would care not to live in Fairbanks and that's fine. Many people who live in Fairbanks would probably not care to live where those other people would.

To those brave souls who would desire to live in Fairbanks I have a few thoughts to pass on based on my recent experiences there. Fairbanks is cold and dark in the winter and hot and bright in the summer - its akin to a town with a bi-polar seasonal disorder. It had already begun dipping to twenty below zero at night last week while I was visiting - not to far out of whack from the historical perspective - but maybe just a tad. In any case I think the secret to coping with living in Fairbanks is dealing with the winter - that's been my experience anyway.

1) It's gonna be dark in the winter months. Get outside in the sunshine whenever possible. No, get outside period - dark or light. Just do it. (The northern lights can be pretty spectacular during those dark hours.) And, if you can afford it and/or need it, purchase a quality "sun" lamp and use it daily - it makes a difference.

2) It's gonna get COLD. Prepare for it. Purchase a down jacket with a ruff and use it. Spend the little extra money to get the quality cold weather gear and get a warm hat! If possible, use a garage for the vehicle and outfit the vehicle with extra warm clothes, survival gear, engine warming accessories, and an auto start if you can afford it.

3) Be social. Get involved with activities outside of work (and don't work all hours of the winter day!). There are many activities through churches, clubs, organizations, etc., for which to become active. Or, if you have kids, get them involved in something. Don't sit around at night and watch TV - just killing brain cells doing that!

4) Get out of the house. By this I mean be outdoorsy, get involved with activities, get together with friends for card games, or simply go out to eat and to a movie with friends, family, or your spouse. Don't let the cold and dark limit your thinking about getting out of the house - just prepare for it.

5) Plan to do things on the weekends or your days off that involve something other than cleaning the house or catching up on bills. Get something in your schedule to look forward to.

6) Get outside. Yeah, so I mentioned this a couple times already. I think it is important enough to mention again. Just get outside - I don't care if it is thirty degrees below zero - just do it. Go hop on a snowmachine (okay, maybe not at thirty below), take a walk, or just a drive on a sunny day, get and stay active.

So, those are thoughts off the top of my head on how to make it through the Fairbanks winter. Summer is awesome. If you have a problem with the Fairbanks summer (besides the mosquitoes and wildfire smoke) then it really is time to consider moving. I don't know of a better place to be in the summer than in the Interior of Alaska. Yeah, I know Fairbanks is lacking mountains, but Denali Park is only two short hours south and there are the White Mountains only an hour northeast or so.

In any case I had been thinking such thoughts for the past year - you know, if ever I found myself living again in Fairbanks, what would I do differently or not do differently. Well, those points were some of my thoughts on the subject I suppose.

So, if you haven't gathered presently that I spent this past week in Fairbanks, well, then, that's where I was. The main thrust of the trip was to check in with work and then to follow up visiting a number of friends including my younger brother.

The week went very well and all points accomplished that were intended at the onset of the trip. The most important point being that I informed by boss and former coworkers that I would not be returning to work following this leave-with-out-pay period that is set to end shortly. Thus, this was simply an "official" resignation.

There are no second thoughts about this decision. I believe it to be the right decision and have a peace about this decision and the future it will bring. And so, with this decision and the recent PE test behind me, I now set off for an undetermined future...

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Into the Future

The paths run out ahead of their bottlenecked beginnings just in front of my steps. How I found myself here at this crossroads I still ponder - however, just a turn to where I have arrived from is a stark reminder of why I stand here now.

The paths that stretch across the country into the distance are numerous and contrast one another. Many paths are visible, some seemingly changing with the wind and others that fade as if they had not been there at all. Still there are other paths that wade out into the grassy fields and into the distance, visible for miles, where a hand could brush the tall tips of the long grass as the path is walked. Other paths enter into forests of beautiful trees, low underbrush and rolling hills, providing a stunning canopy to meander through, and a route that is just in sight around the next bend or across that small creek.

Yet, there are more paths, though only a small number, that creep out and up, into the fog of the rocky crags, behind which peaks of bold mountains are visible rising above the misting clouds. The peaks stand abrupt, unwavering, and inviting to invigorate the soul.

It is a fog-stricken path that I desire, that I wish to pursue and that beckons. It is a path that leads to places unknown, through a route that is not visible, but to a goal that is undeniable. The fog is even present now while I stand at the crossroads and look for this path. The fog clouding my mind, yet I know my steps must still proceed and so I creep forward, making certain the footing is firm and feeling for that path of the invigorating unknown.

And, so, into the future I roam...

Monday, October 17, 2005

Lyrics...

With every minute passing by
I'm spending my life one coin at a time

What have I done
What can I give
One life I own
One life to live
What will be said
When I am gone
He kept his life
Shared with no one

Now I find myself questioning
My thoughts and schemes, hopes and dreams
Now I've come to realize I'm not alright
There's more to life

Spending on me, myself, and I
Can'’t help but feel I've wasted time
No time for others, just myself
Wonder how many coins are left
Can'’t seem to answer the question why
Why I should live instead of die
I feel so scared on my own
Wish I had Someone to lead me on
To Light up the Way
Show me the Road
Give me the Strength
Make me Bold

Spending on me, myself, and I
Can'’t help but feel I've feel wasted time

~ slightly paraphrased, "Kid Innocence" by Olivia the Band

Monday, October 03, 2005

The Hunt


The month of September in Alaska carries a beautiful, yellow fall to the great expanse of land here. Quick on the heels of the changing hues is the clatter of hunters scrambling to capture a time of solace in the woods during the fall hunting seasons. Many hunters are successful and many are not in the chase of their game.

I, along with my dad and uncle, had the opportunity to join the ranks of hunters out in the field this fall, and thankfully, became a successful participant in the annual fall season of 2005.

In an effort to both capture the experience for the future and to describe it to others I have put together a story/journal of sorts that highlights much of the trip. I always think it difficult to describe an experience with words and pictures - nothing ever seems to do the reality of the experience justice. Thus, I would always recommend experiencing things for yourself if conditions permit, so go caribou hunting if what you see here is intriguing but just remember to expect the unexpected.

I must insert here that the following recounting of the experience is quite lengthy, longer then I had initially expected it would be (12 pages in a Word document - ah!). Additionally, if one is to continue reading I would recommend that they only do so if they agree with hunting. If a person doesn't agree with hunting then I would recommend they read no further. The account is not gruesome in detail but rather it is the principal of the matter I would suppose. No attempt will be made here to discuss the reasons for or against hunting.

Further, this version of the experience has not been passed by Gary or Dad for proofreading or input. Any growth or shrinking of the story on my part is due to my own recollection of the events at hand. I have attempted to describe everything as accurately as I recall, however, as they say, stories such as this tend to grow with time - thankfully it has only been a week or so...

Pictures of the trip have been added to the picture website that is maintained and can be visited by clicking here. I have tried to include those pictures that are the best suited and visualize aspects of the trip. Some are better than others. The pictures that include a date in the lower right corner were taken by Dad and the pictures which have no date are the pictures from my camera - it's roughly half and half for this collection.

The pictures have been arranged in a near chronological order. Each pictures caption includes a date indicating upon which day it was taken. I have included hyperlinks with the bold dates below that take you directly to the first picture included in the album of the corresponding date. Hopefully that works out for anyone who is interested.

And, so, let us begin...

Friday, 23 September 2005:
We departed Anchorage at the bright and early hour of 8 am, of course this meant leaving for the airport brighter and earlier as well, with Gary only running on a couple hours sleep having arrived from Oregon just after midnight that same morning.

In any case the flight to Dillingham put us there in time to re-pack and prepare to fly out with the air taxi, Bay Air. We were able to fly out a bit earlier than expected and arrived at our camp spot around 2 or 3 in the afternoon.

The decision on where to go was not made with a heavy knowledge of what might be there. It was more or less something that "sounds good" and actually turned out to be a wonderful spot... The air taxi was actually retrieving two hunters at this location and so was able to drop us and pick them up at the same time.

According to the previous hunters they hadn't seen any animals in the last couple of days, but had taken two cow caribou during their five day stay. In fact, they were basically weathered in for at least one day - no piece of information here that one would care to hear about their future hunting location...

We were located around an hour's flight northwest of Dillingham, Alaska (exact location will not be disclosed, but you could probably figure it out by looking at the geography...) and near the Togiak National Wildlife Refuge. The camp site was around 1800 feet above sea level, located next to a small lake, and surrounded by beautiful mountains.

The first day we spent much of the afternoon setting up camp (the tent and lean-to/kitchen), getting oriented, and examining the plentiful bear sign in the area. Dad was a bit paranoid about the bear sign, and probably rightly so with numerous locations of bear scat around and a bear-buried carcass around 70 yards to the south of camp. However, the departing hunters had no bear problems in camp but had seen a sow and cub on a hillside sometime during their stay. In any case it seemed reasonable to be aware of bears as is normally the case in the Alaska wilderness - thankfully we averted serious bear trouble but were not without a run-in with some bruins...

That evening Gary and I explored the bench and drainage above and to the northeast of camp. We were afforded a grand view of the lake and valley to the easterly direction in addition to a soft sunset streching over the mountains beyond the lake to the west.

Saturday, 24 September 2005:
Crawling out of the tent sometime after light, probably around 9 am or so, we were met with the first morning and full day of the hunt.

We decided to explore the valley to the slightly southeast of camp and thus, following breakfast and preparation, we set out. Before getting along too far we, as it became a normal practice, glassed the valley and surrounding hills from the bench above camp prior to getting too carried away. It was during one of these glassings that a large group of caribou were spotted on the opposite hills of the valley around a mile (or a bit more) away. The presence of caribou on the opposite side of the valley (opposite in the sense of across the valley floor, and, most importantly, across the sizable creek in the middle of the valley floor) became a recurring theme throughout the trip.

As the raven flies we probably hiked back along the north side of the valley to near one and a half miles. It wasn't a significant distance and the walking was fairly simple along the lower flank of the mountains.

The gravest mistake of the day was not packing along our hip boots to cross the creek. We attempted to scout a number of what we thought may be possible crossing locations, however, we were not able to find a dry crossing (well, apart from stripping off the lower half and going for it...). Alas, all we could accomplish that day was a halfway reasonable glassing of the heard of animals across the valley floor. In this group of near 60 animals there were hints of a number of interesting bulls, however, further pursuit would have to wait until we could figure out how to cross the stream.

Returning to camp in late afternoon we were able to enjoy a meal and another gentle sunset over the distant mountains. However, the weather of the day was not as gentle as the sunset picture may let on. It was this day that we first experienced the on again, off again nature of the rain in this country. In addition to rain and the occasional hail/sleet, there was wind from the east and a hint of sunshine from time to time to warm up that 40-degree air. Let's just say that the weather seemingly constantly morphed in an effort to persuade those caught out in it - well, at least during the first few days.

Sunday, 25 September 2005:
Arising from the warm sleeping bags a bit earlier then yesterday we made a consolidated effort to leave camp a bit earlier as well - not exactly the crack of dawn but 10:30 am anyway.

After glassing from the bench above camp, and noting the caribou herd of yesterday had moved slightly west (towards camp) and down the hillside just a hint we were prompted to make an effort to ford the creek and pursue the game in their territory. Thus, with hip boots strapped to our packs we set off from the bench high along the side of the valley (lower flank of the mountain). However, we departed from Dad at the bench as he was to man camp that day due to a flare-up of a previously agitated heel.

As Gary and I approached one of many ribs that provide a topographical wave along the flank of the mountains a cow caribou approached below us around the bottom of the rib. She stood and stared for a minute at us and then turned back and retreated the other direction, however, not apparently spooked. As we were able to look over the rib we noted a small group of caribou that were now generally heading back up the valley away from us (we later thought that had we stayed put when the cow initially saw us the herd may have moved towards us).

As we approached the subsequent rib in pursuit of the ambling caribou a bull of appreciable size was noted within the group and we decided that I should try for him (Gary forced me into taking the first attempt!). We attempted to fashion a suitable rest with Gary's pack for what appeared to be a 250 yard shot, however, I did not quite feel comfortable with the quartering shot presented by the bull. So after readjusting and lining back up on the bull he presented two more opportunities quartering away from us at around 300 yards - I should have taken one of these two opportunities but did not. The bull sauntered over the next rib and with him the remainder of the small herd bringing any opportunity here to a close.

Thinking that the caribou may have just retreated over this next rib, out of site, we pursued, but did not find the caribou anywhere in view. After assessing the situation and surrounding clues it appeared the caribou had gone up a drainage heading north. So, in an effort to provide either pursuit or a failed tracking attempt we scrambled up the slight drainage to a saddle - a height we estimated at least 1,000 feet elevation from the valley floor. We made it to the saddle between two rounded peaks and glassed the area beyond, to the north and north east. Far off in the distance, across another deeper drainage, were a group of caribou - we couldn't be certain that they were the same group but if I were a betting man my money would be that it was the same group; laughing histerically, I am certain, at the hunters they had evaded.

Of course, there was a certain piece of information that I failed to share with Gary prior to the failed opportunities on this bull. I had never actually shot an animal before, large or small, and had never lined up on an animal which I was certain was legal (hey, the moose over the past couple of years couldn't grow that last brow tine they needed per the reg book). I think this caused a lack of confidence in setting up on this first bull and missing what was a very good shot opportunity as he was quartering away from us. Gary took the news in stride, or at least he appeared to, and from that point was able to provide a number of good pointers, thus insuring some level of confidence for any subsequent opportunity. Details, details, eh?!

Following our retreat from the saddle just after 1 pm we took a little while to eat lunch and glass the opposite side of the valley from our vantage up the lower flank of our side of the valley. The caribou we had noted earlier that morning were still present, having moved from their initial location to a couple dispersed groups in an area just beyond a concise ridged bowl. We decided that our next pursuit would be after this group. It was not clear from this distance if there were bulls present that piqued our interest, however, we agreed to approach the groups from the backside of a number of small ridgelines that ran up the valley floor and peruse the caribou from the ridge of the small ridged bowl just to the northwest.

After a couple moments figuring out where best to cross the creek a suitable location was found and the first crossing of the creek made during our hunt (certainly not our last). We managed to approach the group without being spotted (it was close - a cow had stuck her head up and over a ridge - but we don't think we were spotted) and crept up and over the eastern point of the bowl to a vantage point of probably 40 or so caribou in the immediate area. I think we reached this vantage point sometime a little after 3 pm.

The weather was off and on during this time frame, as it had been yesterday. The glassing of this group was straught with rain, wind and even a bit of hail/sleet. We probably glassed for around a half-hour or a bit more and then backed off for a little while to warm-up, consider the options at hand, and wait out the current bought of nasty weather.

In this group of caribou, the immediate group as there was actually a group above and beyond probably another 1000 yards out to the southeast, around five bulls were identified all with varying features. The best of the group appeared, with the aid of Gary's spotting scope, to be a bull laying down around 300 yards to the east of our position on this small ridge of the bowl. We decided that this might be the best opportunity for me to take a bull caribou (Gary was quite gracious in this) and so we begin to set up a rest in a suitable position for the bull of interest.

As I was settling in to the make shift rest there emerged a small group of caribou from a lower drainage to the south of where we were - a group that we could previously not see from our lookout. In this group was a bull of more appreciable stature then any we had seen yet. In one of those near split-second (but obvious) decisions we decided that I would go after this newly appeared bull.

The first shot was placed at a distance of nearly 280 yards (give or take) towards this bull that was slightly quartering away from us and took out the right rear ankle of the bull - a bad shot. A second shot was fired at a little greater distance - a shot that we figured never made contact! At this point the bull was hobbling off and the rest of the herd had figured that something was up and continued moving away from the awful noise, some quicker than others. The bull hobbled along the flank of a smaller ridge and I had a third opportunity, again with a slight quartering shot - however, in my rush to load the third round I failed to bring the bolt back far enough to engage the round from the magazine - thus the third attempt was not a shot at all.

At this point I was pretty unhappy with myself and hated to see that I had failed to make a clean kill on a now injured animal - my confidence was fading fast. I then quickly made certain the third round was in the chamber and set up again on the bull who was now just over 300 yards in the distance. Using Gary's advice I sighted in high (on the bull's backbone just down from above the right shoulder) and took the third shot - a shot that proved to be the last. This dropped the bull and appeared to be the final shot - most thankfully! Gary later found the bullet from the third shot while skinning out the left side of the bull - the bullet had entered the right side of the bull, to the rear of the shoulder and taking out a lung and part of a vertebrate. Upon approaching the bull we confirmed that the third shot had done what was intended much to my relief and begun the work of taking the meat off the animal - after a number of pictures of course.



Just as we completed the pictures and started in on skinning the animal a rainbow appeared to the north of us spanning the valley floor from east to west. We tried to get a few pictures with the rainbow, but I failed to get the camera exposure to agree with a top quality picture. I suppose that more importantly the rainbow signified to me that God had blessed us with a safe hunt and a wonderful bull caribou. Additionally, I think that third shot was more then I could have done on my own and certainly was more than lucky - the first two shots proved my confidence was lacking - and I don't believe in luck.

It was around a quarter to five in the afternoon when the final kill shot was made. After some pictures we remained at the kill site separating the head and taking the meat off the animal until around 7:30 pm. Following placement of the meat around 75 yards to the south and crosswind of the kill site we departed for camp, arriving to a hot meal by the resident chef just after 9 pm. It was excellent to crawl into the sleeping bag that night.

Monday, 26 September 2005:
Monday morning the job at hand was to head back to the kill site and pack out the remaining meat and antlers (Gary had taken a load of meat the previous night and I had our day packs on my packboard).

To this end we left camp in the late morning and set out lightly packed with food and water. The hike to the kill site was around an hour and a half if kept in motion. We weren't exactly in a hurry but I think the general consensus is that it would be good to get the meat and antlers packed out and then focus on getting Gary a caribou.

The day turned out to be rather nice for this part of the country and at this time of year - at least notably more pleasant then previous days. The sun even peeked out from behind the high cloud cover and graced us with its welcome presence. However, there was a constant wind this day rolling down the valley, as was typically the case during the trip - a wind that could chill to the bone if not prepared for its stiffness. We were essentially hiking upwind heading towards the kill site and so the return, with the wind at our backs, was especially nice.

Arriving near the kill site we approached cautiously, glassing the area on the lookout for predators of the big and brown variety. Finding only ravens after peeking out from around the corner of a ridgeline we approached the site.

Following the mandatory additional pictures and viewing of the outstanding butchering work (w/o gutting the animal) that Gary had performed the day previous (I did help, but certainly felt little but an observer) we set about removing the skull cap with antlers from the head that had been separated the previous evening.

While I was finishing up cleaning what I could from the skull cap (you don't really want to know...) Gary and Dad were figuring out the distribution of the meat for the pack out. It was about this time that I looked up from my work for what I think was simply a scan of the surrounding low slung ridges. There was a slight movement on the crest of a ridge somewhere over 200 yards to our south accompanied by a raven - this noted next to a rather brown rock - or what appeared to be a rock. It felt like a full minute as I starred at that dark brown hue of a rock, though it must have only been a handful of seconds, then time seemingly slowed down as the rock began to move.

"Hey guys, bear!" I said in a voice that surprised me in its calmness. Then the action begin - Dad and Gary spun around from arranging the meat for the packs and after some discussion on what to do - something that I really don't remember except it was now clear that there was not just one bear but a sow with three cubs - we all three consolidated closer to one another and moved slightly towards the bear waving our arms and yelling, loudly. The sow took a few steps towards us, and continued looking towards us as her cubs milled around uncertain of what was next - just as we were. I don't know how long she starred towards us, I think it was just a handful of seconds, but whatever it was she eventually decided that we were not worth her time and turned with her cubs ambling off over the crest of the ridge.

That was the last we saw of that family of grizzlies and remains our only bear story for the trip - thankfully. We supposed that she probably was back at the kill site later that evening in order to fatten up her clan on the caribou buffet, with our compliments of course. The amazing part is that had we arrived at the kill site an hour later then what we had, there would have been no chance at retrieving the meat or the antlers. Thus, we were mighty thankful that such an event, if to occur at all, would take place in such a blessed encounter.

Needless to say that following the action with the grizzlies our exit from the area was exponentially hurried and we just kept moving for at least a good forty-five minutes until we reached the stream crossing and our hip boots. It was there we sat and ate some lunch and enjoyed the nice day - with the wind at our back.

We arrived back at camp around 4:30 pm and set about storing the meat. Thanks to Dad's efforts of the previous day, storage of the meat with adequate ventilation and rain cover proved to be rather quick and easy.

As we recouped from the day's events, I unloaded my wet day back and other items that had been nicely saturated, and went about laying them out in the breezy, but sunny, conditions - optimistically hoping for some drying action. During the day Gary had talked about going out in the late afternoon if we had not crossed paths with caribou earlier in the day (we did see some during our packing out but at quite a distance I believe) - he was serious and moving about camp in preparation to head back out while I casually laid out my stinky, wet items. Having already left camp that morning prepared to take another caribou I don't think there was much else for Gary to throw in his pack - he sure didn't waste time in any case.

Gary left camp just after 5:30 pm on a course due south, across the marsh where the creek of the valley opened up and dumped into the lake. I told him that I would keep an eye on where he was heading and follow when I was ready. Gary pushed nearly straight across the marsh to our south and then angled his way up the side of a hill - heading roughly west on the face of a ridge that ran east to west. We kept track of his movements with binoculars and he eventually crested the ridgeline around a quarter-mile to the west of where he had first set out angling up the side of the hill.

I finally struck out for the marsh a quarter after 6 pm that evening. It didn't take long to reach the main body of stream, however, the crossing of the stream was not as quick and easy as Gary's crossing had seemingly been. I spent a solid half-hour walking up and down the bank of the not-so-shallow stream looking for a spot to cross. I had no idea how Gary got across in relatively quick fashion as I could not seem to find a safe crossing that was not over my hips boots.

I was considering giving up and now that Gary was not in sight up on the ridgeline (he had been silhouetted from time to time) I didn't think it necessary to continue as I was certain Gary was only up there for scouting purposes. One thing I didn't mention earlier is that I was tired from the efforts of the previous day and today and my two wimpy legs were beginning to get that jell-o feeling. So, I was really just attempting to talk myself out of additional exercise that day in a not-so-rational way.

It was then, while dwelling in my self-pity and tiredness, that I heard a shot followed by a number of cow caribou running along the crest of the ridge directly to the south of my location near the stream. There was another shot and a small figure visible up on the ridge near where the cow caribou had been spotted seconds earlier. This occurred just a few minutes after seven - an hour and a half since Gary had left camp.

Frantically, in excitement and curiosity, I dug through my pack looking for the two-way radio that had been shoved into the depths just an hour previous. Finding it and turning it on I found that Dad and Gary were already in discussion over the events just minutes prior. Gary had taken a bull up on the ridge!

In the ensuing, broken, two-way radio conversation Gary declined aid in butchering the animal (something that I should have pushed on to help him with we later thought!) and, piecing together the story from this conversation and later that evening it was clear that he had been in the right spot at the right time.

After cresting the ridge around a quarter-mile to the west he had continued back up the sloping ridge in a easterly direction while glassing the backside of the ridge from around the crest. As he approached a flat area prior to where the ridge continued up to the peak of the mountain at a much greater incline he could hear the sound of hoofs on rock. Streching out from around a rock he spotted a couple of cow caribou, who, at this point or just a little later spooked. It was at this point he noted a large bull in the rear of the cows who soon began to run as well. Gary made a split-second decision and took an initial shot at the bull, which dropped him, and followed up with a kill shot to the head moments later.

It sounds as though Gary was as surprised about the opportunity with this group of caribou as I was surprised that he took an animal. Gary had said that he is not certain from which direction the caribou had approached as he had previously glassed the entire ridgeline and backside of the ridge (which was more of a flat plateau) and had not seen any sign of this group of caribou. It was after continuing towards the flatter portion of the top of the ridge he was walking that the caribou appeared to approach from the frontside of the ridge and in any case were just as much a surprise as anything. Gary ended up with a beautiful bull caribou - pleased with his decision to go in search of an animal that evening.

The real work begins after taking an animal - and so it began for Gary this night just a bit after 7 pm. He was working on separating the meat and the head until nearly 9:30 pm. Dad and I could watch him silhouetted on the ridge while we prepared and ate dinner back at camp (that just sounds wrong doesn't it?!). Complete darkness set in just a bit after 9 pm, as the weather begin to roll in. We were in radio contact with Gary and were aware of his movement and condition (he did have a small flashlight that weaved about across the darkness of the marsh as well). It took just under two hours to make it back to camp safely that night, hampered by the stream crossing in the dark, but he did find his way and appeared around a quarter after eleven. Thankfully a change of dry clothes and a hot meal awaited Gary in camp, as did the ears of two hunters anxious to hear his story of the hunt.

The sleeping bags felt great to all of us that night, and rightly so I suppose. However our ears were attune to the more harrowing aspect of the heavy rain and wind that attacked the tent that night. Not only that but thoughts of what might be happening to the meat that sat upon the ridge to the south. Hopefully the day to follow would not be as ugly as the night sounded.

Tuesday, 27 September 2005:
Tuesday morning we awoke in hopes of finding a day that would limit dryer weather than the night had. We soon found that the day would become quite nice and probably the most pleasant day of the trip - to everyone's relief I think.

We sat out in the late morning, as was our custom (hey it didn't get completely light until near 9 am), and directed our sights on the ridge to the south. All told the trip to the top was probably a good hour and a half if not a bit more as we took our time to establish a safe spot to cross the creek and marked it for the return trip.

Upon cresting just above and to the west of the snowfield (look at the picture) we approached the kill site (from downwind actually) cautiously, as the bear incident of yesterday was still fresh in our minds, and found only ravens, thankfully.

Gary had done a great job of butchering out the bull by himself and the meat remain untouched 50 yards upwind from the carcass - granted the meat was a bit wet from the previous night as Gary's older space blanket could not handle the wind. We set about taking as many pictures as patience would allow and then began the task of distributing meat to packs and removing the antlers from the head.

From the vantage point of this low ridge (it was something like 750 feet above the valley) were some beautiful views of the surrounding country - excellent backdrops for pictures of Gary and his caribou - Dad and I snuck into a few pictures as well.

Our route down the hill was more direct then our ascent and along the way we stopped for a few more pictures of Dad and his bull - check it out. The descent was a welcome walk back to camp with a couple of happy hunters.

We stopped and took a break where we had stashed our hip boots and ate some needed lunch while we found that a decent sized group of caribou had found their way over to the side of the valley upon which our camp lay. Initially the were at a point probably a third of a mile up the valley from camp and were slowly feeding their way down the valley towards us. We continued to watch them for some time but eventually figured that it would be good to get the meat back to camp and get it drying.

The crossing of the marsh had increased difficulty with the additional pack weight that each of us carried, however, the crossing was intriguing under the eye of the caribou just a quarter-mile or less to the east. The caribou never spooked and I don't even know that they really noted our presence. Regardless we did make it back to camp and set about getting the meat stored properly.

By this point in the day it was after mid-afternoon and we then considered our options while keeping an eye on the caribou herd that was within easy sight of the bench just behind camp. There were probably no less than sixty animals in this group - a group that Gary and I were certain were present the day that I took my bull on Sunday. In amongst the caribou were the thoughts of leaving a day early. Thanks to the satellite phone Dad was able to contact the air taxi and secure an probable pick-up time of 10 am or so on Wednesday morning.

Thus, our attention focused on readying for departure in the morning, however, an eye or two were kept on the unknowing caribou group that so easily presented itself close to camp. In fact, one cow essentially walked around the corner of the bench and practically into camp at only 70 yards from the tent or so. Certainly one of the highlights was the opportunity to watch these caribou closely - they are an amazing and majestic animal.

We enjoyed our first dinner out from under the tarp that evening and with a sunset over the lake.

Wednesday, 28 September 2005:
Wednesday morning we awoke to fog and slight mist. Actually, lots of fog. After slower morning then what a sunny clear day would prompt us for and after a few calls to the air taxi we set about packing things up. In spite of the weather the air taxi would attempt a pickup a little later in the morning.

The thought of returning home for a nice hot shower was very pleasant - though a little ways off and many questions to be answered. Additionally, as wonderful as the hunt had been I think Gary was looking forward to having a couple extra days to explore Alaska with my Aunt. So, while we were not scurrying around camp there was a certain determination to get packed in spite of the fact that the fog seemingly had no intentions of lifting.

During the morning of packing and readying ourselves a small herd of caribou emerged from the hills above the bench behind camp, ambling down from parts unknown. They literally passed within 20 yards above our tent and kitchen area and Gary was able to watch from a close distance on the edge of the bench. In amongst their group were a number of cows and a bull. One of the cows found her way down around the corner of the bench and right near camp, much as the cow had the day previous. Again, it was another opportunity to glance at these animals up close.

After having been packed and ready for a little bit we sat under the tarp, out of the fog and mist, and ate as much food as possible - we were nearly at our max payload heading into camp and even with the forced eating that Gary and I did by Dad's aggressive supervision we were still uncertain if the air taxi would have to make an additional trip.

The fog began to lift sometime just after half past eleven or so and as we walked up to the bench to check on the small herd of caribou that had been watched by us (or them watching us?) earlier that morning. As we were standing there admiring the country and the fog that had lifted to a ceiling of around 500 feet or so we heard the distinct rumble of a rotary engine from a De Haviland Beaver. Following what sounded as a couple of circles up in the valley above the fog the Beaver came roaring out of the fog from the southern portion of the valley and headed right for us - Bay Air had returned for us much to our surprise and relief.

We were able to make the payload weight and, perhaps more importantly, were able to fit all of our stuff into the plane (it was tight, just ask Dad and Gary who got to share the backseat with Gary's drybag). Indeed the flight back to Dillingham was beautiful and certainly another highlight of the trip.

Back in Dillingham we repacked our numerous bags and boxes and set off to see about shipping the meat and cargo and gathering ourselves onto a flight back to Anchorage. As it turned out we were blessed to obtain seats on a flight later that evening and had plenty of time to see that the meat, antlers and other cargo was arranged for shipment on a flight the following day.

I think we were all glad to return to Anchorage that evening (I think at least my Mom and Aunt were relieved), though we relish opportunity which we shared out in the Alaska wilderness. The hot shower was very welcome that evening.

It is not often that I have had an opportunity to spend such time in the wilds of Alaska. Getting out around Anchorage and Fairbanks is certainly venturing into the wilderness, however, it is a different wilderness - one accessible to the road system and to the many amentities and convieniences such brings with it. As I noted earlier it is very difficult to summarize the experience with simple words and pictures - such just don't do the experience proper justice. A time in the wilderness, whether it is hunting or not, is certainly an opportunity to cherish, enjoy, and remember for life.

Our trip was certainly a blessed experience I feel and I am very glad that God was watching out for us as we did very much enjoy the opportunity and hunting experienced in God's Country. The geography, location, hunting and companionship exceeded expectations.

Thanks to Dad for putting many of the details together over many hours and to Gary for his heavy involvement in aiding my efforts towards my first caribou. We had a grand time.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

In Alaska: Where Winter Approaches

Monday late evening marked another return to the State of Alaska.  It was good to be back in this state.  A golden color greeted the morning on Tuesday.  The leaves here in Alaska have changed indicating the approaching winter.  It is hard to believe that one more summer has now passed.  However, I do believe that September is one of the best months of the year here with cool, sunny fall days full of changing colors, and seasons (additionally, there are no longer any tourists, er, bugs to speak of).  

The past five weeks (nearly) have been spent in the Pacific Northwest and in the Midwest.  I don't have much more to add to the previous posts on the travels.  This is not to say that a grand time wasn't had, rather, I wouldn't know where to begin.  Highlights of the trip(s) were spending time with friends and family - opportunities for which another chance may not transpire for some time (at least such in the Midwest).  So, it was quite a blessing to have the opportunity to continue the travels in the states and I hope to retain many of the memories and experiences!

BTW, a new addition to the photo album family was made today to highlight just a few of the picturesque scenes from the travels.  The pictures aren't of the highest caliber but do capture some of the scenes from Ohio thru Michigan and even recent excursions around the farm in Tacoma and an escapade to Mt. Rainier.  

The brain is not functioning well tonight.  Maybe the LCD screen of the computer is finally eating its way through my retinas into the brain cavity.  In any case not much more to say right now - maybe someone out there has something interesting to say.  Well, off to pack for hunting on Friday!  

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Return of the Blog

Summer always moves by too quickly. As do the years.

I compose this most recent post from the Pacific Northwest, Tacoma area actually; a place where there is a certain chill in the air that was not here just a month prior. It is five days since I stepped off the plane delivering me (and others) from the Midwest.

Nearly a month has passed since I left for the Midwest States. I know, it’s hard to believe. The return from Cleveland, Ohio to Seattle, Washington was completed this past Sunday (11 Sep 2005). The days between the previous post (Wed, 8 Sep 05) and Sunday were charmed with one final house visit and then a few days in Cleveland enjoying friends and the final wedding of the summer (that I will attend anyway).

The wedding weekend turned out to be a grand event to cap off two and a half weeks of traveling across the Midwest. The wedding of Jason and Felicia was wonderful (okay, Jason may have had a few loose nerves) and held a beautiful beginning for these two as they began a life together rich with love for one another. It’s difficult to capture the experience of the wedding and of the entire weekend with this simple text; I believe a great time was had by all in amongst the visiting, ceremony, reception, and just hanging out. I do hope and pray that Jason and Felicia have many joyful years ahead of them.

Jason’s wedding marks the seventh occasion upon which one of a group of college friends was successfully married off. There are nine guys to which I am counting here (yes, including Jason #2 for those of you in the know trying to figure my math), so, only two bachelors remain. Certainly the weddings of the now married seven have been joyous events and wonderful events (although I missed a couple of them) – each with its own adventures and tall tales.

A rich aspect of the many weddings over the past five years subsequent to the first group of us graduating college (summer 2000) is that there has been at least one wedding for every summer following that has provided a mini-reunion of sorts; first it was Spisham, then Schrubs, followed by Jonboy, and now Blush. The reunions have provided face-to-face time for catching up with everyone, figuring out who is next in line for being led down the aisle, and giving one another a hard time (oh, let’s not forget finding out whose next in line with kids!). I completely enjoy the weddings, yet realize that I look equally forward to spending a day or two with friends discussing each others lives and finding out what is new and remembering the old.

It is true that I was happy to return from the Midwest as traveling nearly 3,500 miles in a span of eighteen days tends to wear thin. Yet, it was a melancholy return as the next opportunity to visit with these college buddies (and their wives) is, as of now, a bit of an unknown. Our email skills are not up to par and so, save big events, news of one another is few and far between (thankfully Hogg is an information gathering and distribution point of sorts – or at least he was prior to his current interest…). And so we are left with the remnants of an occasional email or spoken word to relay the happenings of one another.

The unspoken question is now who is next – Hogg or Woody (as I am known to the college buddies)? My guess is Hogg - it’s only a guess - but after this past weekend I don’t think a poor guess by any means… What do you think Hogg? And, so, this may leave me as the last hold out, or at least the last to walk down the aisle with a bride.

Now, why write about something a bit personal? Well, because it has become a captive thought and dream over the past months (not that it hadn’t been previously!) to unite with a woman in marriage. It is something that my brain has struggled with many times over the years and I know little way of dealing with it at this point other then to let it leak out.

Over the past few months attending four weddings the desire to find that one woman with whom I could share life with has been matched with the rather imposing challenge of going about such an adventure. I believe in the Biblical marriage and know that God has a plan for each of us in relation to marriage provided we involve Him in the process. Jason and Felicia are a wonderful example, I believe, of “a match made in Heaven” – in fact, they aren’t the only example that comes to mind.

But, how do the dynamics of this match making process work? Does it just fall into place and all the pieces just fit? Is marriage between two people something that will happen if “it’s meant to happen”? Or, is the process more involved and intertwined with aspects of building a relationship that seems less then destined for marriage? How does a person know when they have met the “one” or is finding the “one” a development of a longer relationship? How does one know if the feelings are mutual? How does a person know if God is involved in the process as He should be, as opposed to relying purely on emotions? Why aren’t the answers to love easier? Is love an action or an emotion?

Ahhhh! So many questions that probably vary in as many different answers as there are married couples.

Why can’t this marriage process become simple? Why can’t a person just wake up one morning and be married to their “soul-mate”? I think that I know a partial answer to some of these questions, but probably could not give a fully justified answer until I too am married, if ever. Certainly any number of conversations or heated discussions could sprout from this one-sided commentary on marriage.

I believe that the process leading up to marriage does involve some healthy relationship work and is not something that just falls into place (well, some of it may, but not in its entirety). I think marriage is a pursuit of both the man and woman involved, both of whom are seeking God in their lives and desire to have a partner in performing His work. I think that there are any number of marriage partners a person could choose, yet I believe there is that one “Best” choice to which God will play a significant part in that process. I believe that love is part emotion and a lot of action. Christ needs to be the center of the marriage for a truly lifelong marriage of love and joy.

Now it may seem silly to carry on like this on marriage, especially coming from a guy, right? Don’t you think that everyone thinks about this at some point? Well, maybe women more seriously then men, but certainly it is a topic in many a single persons mind. As time passes, it certainly becomes a seemingly more pressing topic. I have felt pressure from this dwindling time standpoint. There is also the implied pressure of parents asking leading questions or providing selected reading material. It would also seem there is an implied social pressure to get married – granted this has probably decreased in modern times. In fact, there is even an internal pressure to find that woman to marry.

However, it is not an exterior pressure for which a reason exists to get married in my mind. Rather it is a desire. A desire for a woman to share life with and to live life with; a partner with whom to seek and follow God’s direction in this life; a desire for a beauty (inside and out) to love and with whom to dream with...

Thursday, September 08, 2005

On The Road Again...

The days continue to roll by - many just as literally as that phrase implies. It's hard to imagine that just two weeks ago I was pondering just how this mini-tour of the Mid-West would progress as I boarded the plane at SeaTac. Thankfully the trip has gone better then could have ever been expected and a certainly blessed experience I think.

The highlights of the trip continue to exist in the reconnecting with college friends and family spread out over this vast part of the country. Memories are re-lived and places once visited are visited again. The past becomes a springboard for discussions of the future. Our history together is also the fertile soil out of which the relationships continue to grow. I find it sometimes sad to see how quickly time has passed, yet the future excitement of a growing family or a happy couple easily eclipses any sadness that may yet remain of times once shared.

It is hard to believe that college graduation occurred just over five years ago. Of course, returning to the school this past weekend certainly made that much apparent as I am certain none of the students who were apparently sophomores or juniors looked anything older then what I would guess as high school age...

The culmination of the trip will arise this coming weekend in Cleveland at yet another college friends wedding. It shall be a great occasion and one last opportunity of this trip to enjoy the time with college friends.

Road trips are also a good time for spending a wee bit of time (okay, maybe quite a lot of time) in thought, contemplation, meditation, and prayer. Now this doesn't go to say that the stereo isn't cranked up from time to time (or more often); rather, it would seem that the miles of interstate provide a unique backdrop for thought. Now, one would think that after nearly 3,000 miles there would be some insightful, well reasoned thought processes taking place. I regret to inform you that I don't believe I have much in that line of thought to share with you other then a few random ideas and maybe one grand scheme.

Yet, it has come to mind in recent times a few certain phrases that friends have written. One person wrote to me to continue to "grow your dreams". That seemed to me a realization of just what I was doing - was I living out my dreams or just carrying on as one would expect in today's world? It's a phrase that continues to resonate in the dark corners of my head and is slowly working it's way forward to be considered under the spotlight of the life now being lived. I had once heard it said that "a goal is just a dream with a deadline". How many people out there live out their dreams? Is it more then just a "pipe dream" to consider living out what one dreams about? Certainly it would be easier to not live out the dreams of the heart, however, would life not also become a tad less of an adventure if one did not? And so as the dreams slowly take shape in the developing solution of the imagination one ponders just how to go about living the dreams into reality.

Now, in contrast to such lofty aspirations and a rather ballooning imagination I had recently read a blog post by a friend who, with significant insight and honesty, sums up the experience of life in a Monday post as follows: "Life is an adventure we each live alone. Surrounded by people, we occasionally have the impression that we are sharing our life with others. We do share experiences; we share time, we share laughter and tears, but in the end our life, the sum of all our thoughts and experiences, are ours alone."

The gut reaction for me was to disagree with that paragraph. But, as it is considered and mulled over, I would have to say that it is a true, if not bluntly so, observation that bears a certain clarity for life's reality. Yet, I wonder if such agreement to the statement would be shared by, say, a couple who have been married for a lengthy period of time, or say a person who had spent many years in service to God. I don't mean to diminish the quote above in any way - the statement paints a photo which captures the sudden realization of a life's truth for all to consider.

And, yet I also wonder that the significance of that statement is not just captured in it's wording but within what it seems to imply (at least to me). I would contend that the significance of life in such a context then is not just within our own experiences and thoughts but rather as is also captured in those honest and open relationships with people to whom we choose to share our life with.

And so I would close here to say that the moments of life that shape and sharpen are those with which others are significantly involved - this would include God, if not moreoverly so. Of course such considerations bear obvious reason for further contemplation and, at least in my case, such should happen as the miles of road ahead provide quiet and solitude and much imagination.

Thus, it is on to Kalamazoo, Michigan from here in Grand Rapids, Michigan. Tomorrow the road will provide for the final destination of Cleveland - with an estimated 3,300 miles traveled by that point I can say that I am looking forward to reaching that goal, yet do intend to fully enjoy the traveling. On the road again...

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Neglect and Travels

The afternoon finds me typing away here near St. Paul, Minnesota. Thanks to the gracious friends with which I am staying for a few days I have had a couple days of quiet solitude to do a little studying, a little thinking, and a little emailing.

Thus, after burning some time catching up on email I thought it quite appropriate to update the neglected blog site, just in case someone interested in viewing the site would care to find themselves upon a new posting...

It would seem that traveling across the Mid-West is rather more exciting than I thought it would be. Now I don't mean to diminish the wonderful opportunities of visiting the friends and family spread out in this area - such visiting has been a great time and wonderful to do. Rather what I speak of is the actual traveling from place to place - much of which seems to be cornfields in the mid-west... In any case I had forgotten just what an expansive place the mid-west is - I don't think one gets a good feel for this by looking at a map - the distance is truly something only to be experienced by physically traveling it in a vehicle or some other method that takes one over the ground.

So, with over 1500 miles on the rental car in the past week and plenty of miles left to go I can say that this country is certainly a vast expanse of - well - corn fields in these parts anyway. Well, not completely corn fields, but it sure makes for a funny (or boring) thing to imagine. The days ahead are certainly anticipated for the different country to view and the people to visit, but I do predict that by the end of the next week and a half I will be ready to end the current nomadic sort of travel.

One stark point in the past few days has been the sharp rise in gasoline prices. After just filling up yesterday morning at $2.55/gallon the price had increased to near $2.89/gallon yesterday afternoon and near $2.99/gallon by this morning. However, just as I start to dwell selfishly on how expensive a gallon of gas is it becomes increasingly clear that the reality of the situation is not focused on the true tragedy; I would contend that the tragedy to which we should focus our prayers and thoughts is upon the people affected by Hurricane Katrina. So, that is a challenge to myself and to anyone who would wish to participate - instead of focusing on the matter of $ for gasoline say a prayer or provide some help for those affected by Katrina.

From here the travels will extend to northern Minnesota, Upper Michigan, Lower Michigan and finally Cleveland, Ohio. Hope to return to Alaska around 19 Sep following a week back in Tacoma, Washington. We shall see what the future brings...

So, anyone out there want to share what life means to them? What do you believe life is for?

Friday, August 19, 2005

MIA

For those that do actually check out this blog site and wonder what happened to the weekly or bi-weekly commentary ... Well, I was wondering the same thing and so decided that I better post something.

The last three weeks have been spent in Alaska. Some studying was done for the upcoming test, however, that didn't turn out to be the focus as there were more important things to do... Like fishing, and a few other activities. Maybe you know what that was but I can't say much until after the festivities of this upcoming weekend, and thus will say little else.

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So, just arrived here in Tacoma, Washington where I will spend a little under a week and then leave for the midwest, off visiting friends and relatives. Actually, hoping to visit a few friends and relatives here as well...

Maybe in the near future I will come up with something more interesting to post and take the time to sit down and do it. Until then there is some nice weather here and plenty of preparations, er, work to do...

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Photos Updated!

For anyone out there who would care to peruse some photos please click on the link at right or click here.

So, enough procrastinating, back to studying for the PE and working on a few projects... More blogging later, maybe.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Back Again

Ah, home sweet home. Well, for the most part.

Arrived back in Anchorage last night after three weeks in Washington, Oregon and Idaho. Blessed with a safe trip and many visits with relatives and friends; it turned out to be a grand time. Over these three weeks the activities included two weddings, the Oregon coast, watching softball games, barbecues, Woodland Park Zoo in Seattle, Crater Lake and southcentral Oregon, a trip on the Snake River, and viewing the scenery along the road to the varied destinations. There are now over 2000 additional miles on my Trooper when compared to three weeks ago. Every mile driven was well worth it.

Maybe in the next few days some pictures will find there way to the photo albums and I'll post a bit more to this blog. In the meantime just catching up on things here and placing a few phone calls...

It's good to be back in Alaska.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Return of the Lower 48

Back in Washington and Oregon (from Alaska) today. Just in time actually to celebrate the little sister's 21st Birthday with a nice dinner out - just her and I. Don't worry, parents, no heavy drinking involved...

Good to be back here in the South to visit family. Looking forward to the next, nearly, 3 weeks of time here. Shall return to Alaska on 25 July - well, only until 16 August, then back down again I come.

It seems pretty amazing to me how God works in even the most humble circumstances, or rather circumstances that may seem to the person in them as humble (or unwelcome) at the time. It seems to me that it is not so much what you do as a result of the circumstances in which you find yourself, but rather the attitude you take about the current circumstances and the forthcoming conduct.

This is all to say that I believe we are put in situations where we can flourish or perish - the choice is dependent upon the individual and how they would respond with their attitude and resultant action. For example the last few weeks in Alaska (after just over four months of absence) were good, however, I don't know that they were what I really wanted on the outset. However, at this point in time I understand why it was that I was in such a circumstance, and while I can't say that a positive attitude abounded I can say that God had plans beyond my own to which I now understand and appreciate. Hindsight is always 20/20.

A quick note that my friend Willard (see the end of this post) is doing much better and currently working to regain strength (and weight) to return to where he was before becoming sick. Thanks to any out there who were praying - don't stop but realize that prayers have been answered.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

The Cabin



Our family owns a cabin out in the woods. We share the woods with the mosquito's - who were delighted to see us recently and rather bent on only enjoying our invitation for a free meal. I once had a theory about mosquitoes - such being that if you didn't think they would bother you, well, then they wouldn't - purely a psychological ploy to advert the persistent buzzing and penetrating proboscis. Well, this past weekend that theory was eighty-sixed along with my personal ban on using bug dope (thank goodness for DEET)!

Now, it wasn't that the mosquitoes were at record levels necessitating extrodinary measures. No, the mosquito numbers were only a tad elevated for this time of year and simply maintaining their passionate pursuit of fresh blood. [Note example in picture above - Keweenaw's favorite mosquito retardant method.] However, without the aforementioned defense tactics of bug dope it is certain that each slap against neck, hand, face, or other body part would have easily limited two kills. Arms and legs, left untreated, could be considered the front lines providing five kills per slap - at least that was my record prior to forfeiting to the advantages of the bug dope.

Dad and I had traveled out to the cabin last night (returning this afternoon) with intentions of checking in on the place. According to the visitation log book there has been, on average, just over one visit per month since this year begun - a paltry showing but evidence that life is not a pursuit of singular enterprises. It should be noted that the previous visit to the cabin was cut short by the parents specifically due to the mosquito dilemma. [mosquitoes should have been included in the medieval torture chambers - hearing a persistent buzzing while attempting to fitfully sleep (and trying to kill the culprit) is just pure agony.]

The point here is not the mosquitoes (though by last count the tally was Me, ~ 50 mosquitoes, and mosquitoes, ~ 25 free meals - some weren't able to finish their meals however) but rather that I realize I have taken many things for granted in this country in which we reside (for the record Alaska is the 49th State of the US). It was while out at the cabin (albeit I was mainly focused on getting back to the house to work on travel arrangements and the like) that I thought we often take many things for granted here in the US, at least I know I do. These thoughts probably stem from reflections on the time in England and conversations with others there. I am not attempting to discredit England or any other country - just thankful for what we have here.

There are many things about our country that I believe we must be thankful for. Among these would be the numerous freedoms, democracy and equal representation, value of life and people, natural resources, abundance of land and open spaces, and recognition of God's providence in the founding and documentation of this country's beginnings. Certainly, there are varying opinions on all of these matters, and more, to which every person will likely have there own opinion. However, that is part of the beauty of what we have here in the US - think about it.

It's true that I don't agree with all actions and opinions of people, including some expressed by governmental figures; however, this again is an example of why this country is what it is. It's true that this country isn't perfect, or logical in all respects - no one is trying to paint that picture - the country is made of people who are not perfect - such is fairly evident reading the often unfairly negative media. An example may be the contentious issues wrapped up in Iraq. I support the actions in Iraq and Afghanistan and while I recognize that this war is contentious for many reasons I think it is worth pausing to consider what we are attempting to provide the people there - opportunities and freedoms to which we are afforded here - think about it.

So, I say all this as a petition for others to pause and think about what they are thankful for in this country. It is, after all, Independence Day.

Happy 4th of July!
God Bless.

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Pictures and Things



Found this picture of the Northern Lights in some deep, dark file on the parents machine. It is a scan of some slides that I had taken one night back in January from the top of Mt. Baldy. Believe me when I say that the length of the exposure aided the colors in this slide - the Lights were not so great as this depicts that night. In any case it is a photo that came out much better then expected and is for your viewing pleasure.

So, spent this past weekend on the Kenai River with the Men's Group from church. No fish to really speak of, but a good time with some awesome weather. Supposedly there were fish in the Kenai and Russian Rivers, but we didn't catch any in the three days of attempting. Of course, we did bypass stopping at the Russian River confluence due to the crowds of people - I am not kidding - check out the pictures for yourself.

Friday, June 24, 2005

Books!

Not that I am a big reader like the 'bros but I thought that maybe someone out in cyberspace would be interested in some quality reading (uh, not internet based). So, this post has been some time in getting it out, but nonetheless the books are all good reads.

Maybe someone out there would like to comment and recommend some books my direction - you know, trade for book recommendations.

Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis : A logical and thoughtful set of essays on the essence of Christian living

The Abolition of Man by C.S. Lewis : A thought provoking presentation of why Mr. Lewis believes that current (1950's) textbooks were demeaning to man. This book is striking in that I find it completely relevant to today's situation of man's presence and cultural contexts.

Let Food be Your Medicine by Sally-Ann Creed : A South African friend allowed me to borrow this while in England - good luck finding a copy here but you could contact the author... Eye-popping read on what the right foods can do for a healthy body. Makes sense though, God put us here with the right fuel for our bodies - we just need to fill up with the right stuff.

The Case for Christ (Faith, a Creator) by Lee Strobel : Three different books all by the same author. Very good investigative presentations of the physical and logical evidence for Christ. Read away, with an open mind, and ask the hard questions - you may be surprised at what you find.

The Lord of the Rings (and The Hobbit!) by J.R.R. Tolkien : If you thought the movies were good but didn't read the books, well, you have completely missed out. The books are just grand. Please do read the books and I would recommend beginning with the Hobbit.

A Walk in the Woods by Bill Bryson : A hilarious book on the author's attempt to hike the AT. This guy is a good writer and keeps one interested to the end. I have it on good word that a number of his other books are very good as well - though, beware, sometimes the language isn't too pleasant. I just started working through A Short History of Nearly Everything.

Wild at Heart
by John Eldredge : A refreshing look at how a man is programmed and what in life there is too focus his abilities/talents/drive. Read it and think about what he is saying in relation to your own life. A good read for women too - that is, too maybe help understand men (a little bit anyway, there is no secret decoder ring for men hidden here).

The Purpose Driven Life
by Rick Warren : 40 ways to help focus your life and the purpose therein. Don't you ever wonder what you are doing here? You know you are more then just a chance occurrence - think about it and do something with life. There is more to life then death and taxes - work isn't the answer either.

The Bible by God : Need I say much more? It covers most everything and will change you. Don't believe me - read it and find out.

Any suggestions/comments out there?

More Pics

Just a quick post to say that some pics were recently added from the trip back and out to Idaho Falls including some time in Tacoma. Nothing fancy here really - just pictures from an enjoyable road trip and time at the Farm. This time got a few more peoples in there (sorry family, but you were warned - if you don't like your pics let me know...).

Fishing tomorrow! Hope the Kenai R is ready for us.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Back in AK!

Well, after four months of absence from the 49th state I have now returned to Alaska - actually, it was this past Friday night when the flight arrived... It is good to be back in Alaska, especially now that summer has arrived.

The arrival back in AK was appropriate not only because it was Father's Day on Sunday (for those in the States) but the 18th happened to be someone's birthday - wonder who? Ah, a year closer to 30 - I won't tell you my age but if you figure I was born in 1977... So, I only point out that it's my birthday to remind anyone who happens to be reading this that TIME IS PRECIOUS - use it well (and not that I do, but at least the principle is there, right?).

In spite of the weekend of special days the activities were pretty low key (due to the wishes of those involved and not-so-good weather). So, a couple nice dinners and a movie out with Dad (Star Wars!) made for a good weekend. I should also mention that Dad spoke at church on Sunday and gave what I thought was a great message for Father's Day - he may not know this but they do put such things online - hahahaha.

I hope that anyone out there who happens to be reading this has had a good Father's Day and was able to provide some words of encouragement/love to your father or father-figure. It is difficult for me to imagine what being a father is like as I am not one at this point in time (someday I hope to be a father, Lord willing), but I do imagine that it is quite tough - I don't think any of the four siblings in our family got past those rough teenage years until we were out of the house for a year or two - funny how that worked. So, it would seem that maybe once the first twenty years are up then things with kids get easier, or maybe not. I don't suppose one ever stops being a dad. Though a sad fact is that some fathers never buck up and face their duties - check it out for yourself. Anyone willing to bet that fatherlessness is part of the social/cultural problem in the US (World?) today? It's got my vote as a very serious social/cultural problem.

Happy Father's Day to any fathers out there and thanks for being a part of your children's lives.

It would appear that at this point Alaska and I will continue to coexist for a couple more weeks with a brief respite to the States in July, followed by continuing time here in AK, with another trip downstate in mid-August and a drive to the East. Ah, but plans are made to be changed, so, maybe not. In any case, Alaska holds some people and interests that require some time of their own to which I am glad to oblige. So, if any of you out there wonder upon my short-term schedule... - it's a good question - let me know when you figure out what that schedule is.

On a closing note I would request that for any of you that are out there that are prayerer's (good English I know...) please consider lifting up my friend Willard in prayer (and his young family) as he is fighting a sickness and is very weak (bedridden of sorts) right now. Thanks!